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You Should Get A Butterfly Tattoo

Sweet and sassy For you, tattoos are a thing of beauty - not toughness

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life. You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships. The purpose of your life: showing love to other people Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

You Are Destined to Be Thin

Even if you aren't thin right now, you have great habits that will ensure you're thin for most of your life. You have a great relationship with food and eating. Don't change a thing.

reality hit me today...

today we had a surprise party for shrinks and it hit me so bad...so thats why im writing this to let it out...it reminded me of my birthday when it was the last time i saw nadirah.yes,nadirah from sri inai.the awesome,cool chick, cute one who makes everyone smile.i tried putting on a straight face and i did...

i didnt want ppl to know what i was feeling...the person who makes ppl laugh..crazy little kid...the truth is that i still cant accept the fact...and finally when she found me on facebook and was posting walls once in a while,i get the devastating news...but crying does help...shes not going to suffer through the pain anymore and thats a great thing...

i just wish i could have said more...or known her better...or spend more time with the inaians when i could have...sometimes you wish you could have been there but thats the best you can do...i havent seen her since my birthday and now,it will be a memory to treasure for a long time...that ive got to meet a great person and she'll be remembered for a long long time...i'll miss her presence just like in sri inai last time...god bless...hugs and kisses

*flowers for you*

O week has just started and all the new freshers are coming in.Pretty different now.things have changed and im still adjusting to my new surroundings and there are too many new faces i've to remember(or not)...

anyway got to get some things done...go to uni,get my journal and sort up my subjects etc...weird eyh?neway time goes by too fast..im goin to start uni next week and im a little bit excited.

so far,havent done much.just the study plan for uni of michigan.i pray things will work out.

alright then,time to sleep...long day 2moro

Settling down in Melbourne

Haven't done much so far.Looking around for reasonable contacts and also a school bag but i still have a week.Have to unpack and stuff.Weather here is pretty weird.Its been hot and cold at the same time like 4 seasons in a day,the usual la.

Have been busy doing my exchange study plan.Ive to hand it up by monday so i've to rush and get it done quickly and my mum keeps telling me to UNPACK BUT IVE GOT MORE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO FIRST DURHHHH

anyway,havent really been around to say hello to freshers and be friendly.Ive been stuck in my room most of the time bla bla.I hope that I'll get things settled soon.

By the way,I finally got to watch Jodhaa Akbar today!!It was from 8.30pm to 12am!!!long movie!!but so worth it!!!i really love it!!!mannnnn HRITHIK ROSHAN IS MY HERO!!HE'S SO HAWTTTT!!!SO MACHO,MASCULINE,GENTLEMAN...ZZZ AND THE LIST GOES ON...hes mine mine mine!!Wahahahhaaha love the movie man!!so niceeeeeeeee and can drool over hrithik roshan!!wahahahah...*ooogles*

got another day to do my exchange 2moro in the morning so thats gotta be done.ive gtg sleeeeep now :)

TO ALL MALAYSIANS OUT THERE

This article was taken from the age which is an australian newspaper.Not too sure when it was published but this shows what a disgrace Malaysia is to other countries.

http://www.theage.com.au/articles/2007/11/20/1195321781628.html

Do you still think Malaysia is democratic?

What is going to happen in the next elections?

All i can say is this is how Australia views our country.No further comments.Just passing it on.

Going back to melb today

I feel like my luggage is going to be overweight.my limit is 20kg and I already have 28kg!!!arghhhhhh and i dont know how many hand carry luggages i can bring...

dilemma....i cant wait to go to sg and melb...

lots of oink oink for me hehehe and duty free alco

anyway im going to miss the gurls...

and my familyyyyyyy for sure

time to get back to work got lots to do!

%1

me bored...going back to melb sooooon very soooooooon

alcohol and pork waiting for me wakakaka...i want oink oink hehehe

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL!

Valentine's day was spent grocery shopping with mum in carrefour and window shopping in villagio.At night,we had dinner at a shanghai chinese restaurant which wasn't great but at least we had a great family time.Then,Uncle Rahim joined us and we had coffee at coffee bean.Overall,valentine's day was spent with family and that was really nice and thoughtful.i mean i havent really spent v-day alone since 3 years ago but i guess its different now and things change.I'm happy though haha...ive to start packing to go back to melb!and im really excited!so many things i'd like to do!!3 more days weeeeeeeee

Overall i've met a few friends whom I will really miss...Gayathree and Sheen,my two gurls who are ever so sweeeeeeet and wont stop smiling :) such cuties...and haydar,the crazy ass dude from iraq,such a nice fella too..he and sheen shud hook up lol teehee...*giggles*

I'll definitely miss silk painting coz i enjoyed the classes so much.it was abithard to understand my teacher's accent coz she speaks in this south african accent.She's british but has lived in south africa since she was 8.I have completed 3 paintings and i've sent one of them to be framed.Anyway I will miss her too.She's such a sweet lady :)

Clubbing here - nothing that im going to miss.

Food here - not so great neither.

Sand dunes - friggin awesome.will miss sandboarding and riding the buggies.

Shopping - yes,I'll miss shopping here but i can still do that in melb :)

and last but not least, Family of course.

CNY IN DOHA,QATAR

First day of CNY was very interesting.Well,my parents didn't have any plans and did not plan this CNY dinner carefully,maybe because we didn't have the festive mood for CNY.We decided to just walk in and try our luck.Unfortunately,all the chinese restaurants were fully booked.So we had dinner at the international buffet,movenpick.
It was ok,just that most of the food was western and abit disappointing.

Anyway,mum decided to invite a few family friends over for dinner on saturday and sunday night.Sheen and her family came over on saturday night.Lishan and I had to help mum cook and prepare/set up the tables etc.We live in a small apartment so it was quite squishy but I was glad and happy by the end of it!!!On sunday night(jeng jeng jeng jeng), mum invited this qatari fella which was a bit weird.Anyway,on cny,he kept on talking bout his mum's death and how he buried her etc.I mean it's really not nice to mention about sad things on cny!Its bad luck!!i believe abit in all the hocus pocus chinese tradition so i didnt really like that.Su mei and family came so did gayathree and her bro.It was a good turnout and i had so much food!Family reunions are the best thing on cny!

I'm going back in 3 days time and I'm excited somehow not only coz i get to start studying again but also i get to settle all my other things like the exchange and the uni books etc.this experience has been awesome but i think its only nice to come here once and thats it...3 months is too long for me lol.i'll update on my next post bout the things ive done here so far...

Exchange to US

I've got an email from the exchange advisor and I didn't get to go into any of the University of California campuses coz the requirement is probably like 80 and above.So the lady told me to change my first and second preferences and I've decided on Uni of Michigan and Uni of Pennsylvania.Now I'm not sure if I'll get any of those two though.I'm still trying and I won't give up until my spirits are broken.At least I'm trying really hard.I feel so hopeless now because I've been given so many encouragements and hopes and support by so many people.It's just I've been wanting this for so long since my first year of uni.I've always wondered what it's like to study in the US.I should have done that a long time ago but I'm not regretting anything now.I just feel that perhaps i should have done better but how can you when this course alone is already difficult?but maybe i shud have gotten better grades.I do hope that i will still be able to make it to either one of those two new unis i've chosen.I just seek guidance from Him to show me the way.If it's not His will,I think I will leave it up to Him.There's a reason to everything that happens and I will just wait for the opportunity to come as well as seek it.

I won't give up now eventhough I'm sad and devastated.I'll keep on trying until there's nothing more to hope for.There is always a next time someday.But I won't stop trying.

Chinese New Year celebration

first day - international buffet at movenpick hotel.was a bit disappointed coz it was mostly western and not chinese(lol,durh)

second day - clubbing at diplomatic club.full details later

third day - dinner with sheen and family and uncle rahim

fourth day - dinner with su mei and family,gayathree and her bro,and mohammed,a qatari guy we just met at the shopping mall...zzzz

fifth day - city centre with gayathree

sixth day - final silk painting class

seventh day - bowling with friends

ok and the list goes on..but its one more week before i go back to melb!!woohooooooo

anyway about the clubbing night...too much to say...ive never met so many desperate men in my life!!!!i feel violated and abit freaked out!why?coz the moment u walked in,there are men standing there asking you to join them at their table and offer to buy you drinks...all you have to do is say no...i did many times!truth be told that men here are looking for wives because they cant find one here so clubbing is the easiest way to look for their future spouse...which is silly...its an over 21 event so most of them were pretty old...main highlights of the event,music was so-so...crowd was alrite..company was good and ppl were despo...there was this black french guy who said oh,i reali like you and i want you to call me(gave me a piece of paper with his number on it) and i was like,you dont even know me and im not interested in anyone right now(in other words,bugger off!)...hes so pushy and i got so turned off,i just said i had to go...seriously,i wasnt interested at all coz he didnt even understand what the hell i was saying...he doesnt understand english,yet he had the nerve to come up to me,ask me to dance,buy me a drink and ask me out...what the hell?!!i said i was goin back to australia soon and he didnt understand what the fark i was telling him...a big NO NO...but anyway,didnt even bother to layan him after that...then there was this other middle eastern dude who couldnt stop hassling me...to be honest,im there to have fun and dance with my girls without ppl pushing me around and hassling me...i mean there were bout 7 to 8 men who came up,asking me where i was goin to sleep tonight(wtf,that was so damn sick!),whether i would like a drink(they had probably spiked it)bla bla bla...omg,the nerve!!!at least i know what clubs here are for...not for ppl to have fun but for ppl to pick up and have sex...oh so thats why its over 21!!its just too sick to be true..zzzz such a turn off!

another story...we met this qatari guy at a shopping mall,city centre.ok,so we've just met him and he works at my dad's friend's company so ok we decided to invite him over for cny dinner.so he came over la and makan etc...then he bought my sis and I a YSL perfume each!!!and i was like,no i cant accept this!!how can he buy us a perfume when he doesnt even know us and it was just the second time he has seen us since the encounter in the shopping mall.it was pretty damn awkward,i can tell you that.i was abit agitated,didnt really know what to say.my mum kept saying oh,hes a decent guy,hes smart,rich,a computer engineer who works at an american company and btw,hes 27.what is she trying to say?before he left,he kissed my hand and that was even more weird!!!my whole family just looked and said nothing.we were all too shocked.i avoided his gaze the whole time he was there.i think he needed ppl to talk to him because he wanted attention.but i'll still say no.

and so,i was abit out of it recently.not sure whether i was shocked or surprised.maybe the word for it is overwhelmed by all this.never had to face this kind of situations before.i mean i've already made it clear that i'm not interested in guys.not for now and not for a long time.i just dont want to get involved and its inappropriate to be with people you dont even know.and my family knows i have my self value to that.thats important to keep.i've learnt some important things here and how to deal with them.i guess thats part of being 21.

btw,my future husband is CHRIS EVANS!!coz he so HAWT,JUICY AND YUMMY!!! teeheeee

I've been looking for a school bag to bring to uni.u know those big bags that can fit anything.
books,laptop,lab coat and equipments,pencil case,etc...

i need opinions!!let me know what u think... :)

SAND DUNES IN SEALINE,QATAR

On Chinese New Year's eve,we went to the sand dunes in sealine.
It was so awesome man!!omg,it was the first time we went sandboarding,go on the buggies and camel riding.i had the best time of my life man!!!wooohooooo so here are some pics.

VALENTINE TAG

Is valentine's day important to you?
yeah to celebrate it with my family and friends..its not always for couples you know

Do you have a boyfriend or a girlfriend?
hmm...no

How long have you been in a relationship with him/her?
i m single...

Do you have a crush?
i'm not exactly sure,to be honest.it's complicated

What do you think of him/her?
he's funny,artistic and confusing

What is the best Valentine's Day Celebration have you ever had?
haven't had one that i would call the best yet.

What type of guy/girl you like?
too perfect - someone charming,smart,witty,artistic,musically talented,a gentleman,soft spoken,understanding,supportive,and the list goes on

What is your perfect Valentine's day?
somewhere by the beach to watch the sunset while having a glass of champagne and a bouquet of beautiful white lilies :D

What do you want for your valentine's day?
to be with someone i love(in future)

Who do you wish to see on that day?
my loved one,of course

Do you believe in TRUE LOVE?
yes absolutely

its again almost 12am here(insomnia strikes) and my mind seems to wander off to my memories in KL...

so many things to say,so many words cant describe how i feel...lol

leaving KL was one of the toughest challenges for me

not only was I moving to a new place and a new environment but i was also leaving behind my most precious treasures,my memories,my longtime friends,my loved ones...

it is the hardest thing for me to do...to make newfound friends in a country so foreign to you than anywhere else in the world...it is just so tough to be able to make or force yourself to make new friends..the truth is its not that i dont want to but im just not ready to face the fact that i may not see my friends again...

dad told me we may not be going back to KL in a very long time and i wanted to deny it and make him say that its not true eventhough i know it is and i wont convince myself any longer...its hard to believe the truth when we try not to and when we dont want to...

its really hard to make friends with people when you're not ready to...people are different and ive learnt to accept that...but i really miss my friends back home and no one can replace that...as defensive as i may be,i will always tell my parents that nothing can replace what can never be found...ive found peace and serenity with their company...

i miss the laughs i used to have with ikhsan,alvin,lava,chanduru,sasi and edmund...the crazy jokes we throw at each other..the insults and stupid things we would say...idiots we may be but we will still be like a family

the girls,may,min and sha...the craziness,the wackiness can never be compared to anythin else and i'll never exchange those memories for even the biggest treasure...the laughs and tears...unforgettable

the gossip and stories that we laugh at..becky and steph...the names we call each other haha...prog...

kim,min,yen...our team...the hangout places we go to,the shops...the girly talk...

moments have passed but memories have stayed...can't be gone too far now can it?

being here taught me things that i would never realise elsewhere...all i can think bout is spending more time with them when i could have...there were more things to say,more things to do...every minute and second could have gone without saying the right words yet i didnt make use of it...i miss the moments...that's all i can say

how i wish i could go back to my motherland and see the people who made me who i am and who are important to me...

they say friends come and go but i dont believe that...what if you go and you can never see them again?

i do tell myself everyday that i will see my friends again.i will try my best...

it is really difficult to live in a place friendless and worse still,no church to revive your spiritual growth.

i've learnt to trust what's best for me.for i know that not anyone can be trusted no matter how miserable and sad you may be.there's nobody you can depend on but yourself.that's what ive learnt here.

at least i wont be coming back here again and i hope that i've gained something out of this to make myself a better person.

(I Will Remember You by Ryan Cabrera)

5 things found in my room
1. paintings
2. papyrus drawings from egypt
3. accessories
4. heart shaped garfield from lavaniya
5. my baby white seal called flutterby,bday gift from my friends in melb!

5 things I've always wanted to do
1. speak mandarin and french fluently
2. travel to italy,france,greece,russia,spain,turkey
3. dance - belly dancing,latin dances(salsa,tango and rhumba)
4. read books on world's greatest history
5. spend more time on art

5 things found in my bag
1. my jacket and scarf
2. lip balm and gloss
3. eye solution
4. wallet
5. notebook

5 things found in my wallet
1. student ID
2. IC
3. cards
4. receipts
5. money

5 things I am currently into
1. painting
2. reading
3. shopping
4. slow,classical songs
5. mix and match clothes for mum

5 things I would like to do in future:
1. help the poor and needy
2. help my family and friends
3. make a change
4. make a difference
5. be articulate and outspoken(not afraid of public speaking)

SUNDAY
Royal Plaza
-shopped at terranova,so amazingly good!i love that brand arghhhh coz all the winter stuff was on sale and we bought so many things!!spent 2 hours in the shop!!lol

MONDAY
City Centre
-walked around with auntie Aini and her daughter,Sophie and went hunting for gifts...shopped for a bit

TUESDAY
-Villagio with Gayathree
-silk painting class

WEDNESDAY
Sand Dunes at Sealine.Friggin awesome man...sandboarding,ride camels and buggies...beautiful scenery overlooking saudi arabia


THURSDAY
return books to lishan's school and borrow more.haha


FRIDAY
-Diplomatic Club for a function

SATURDAY
-dinner with Dr Sivam and family

so far,ive done all the colouring and its completed!so happy!decided to draw a seahorse and colour more haha...but ive had a few blunders here and there..had to redo the eyes etc...lol...stil not perfect but at least i had something to kill time

being here for 3 months really woke me up...

for some reason

I really really miss my friends...

I'll be celebrating CNY and valentine's day here without them...

some people leave footprints in your heart and they can never be forgotten...

Yesterday night,Lishan,sheen and I went to watch enchanted!it was sooooo cute!!it was nice!!i loved it!!so cool!i think it was funny!!

krispy kremes opening today...i really want to go...i mean just to check it out but u know...who knows whats happening there

anyway its 1st of feb which means in 17 days i'll be goin back to melb!!!wooooohoooooo