Sunday, April 01, 2007
i was really enthusiastic and at the same time i was nervous about it coz i only slept at 2am and the sequence of events just repeated over and over again in my head.i woke up at 7.30am and tried to get back to sleep but i was just too nervous.its the same feeling when im sitting for my finals and this is what i have to do to prove myself.well,everything went pretty well and i gues im pretty proud of my achievement but im also disappointed that i didnt do as well as i did last year.maybe i didnt train enough and maybe it was too soon.but these events meant so much to me since ive been doing this all my life.i got into the A finals for 4x100m and 100m.the way they class this is like this.they classify the top 6 runners in the A finals and the next 6 runners in B finals.i could feel the atmosphere tensing up as i was walking to my lane and getting ready to go.it was an awkward feeling coz i was the only asian among all the tall,lanky aussies who look like they knew what they were doing.i never felt so much competition b4 and i felt i should have done better.in the overall results,i got number 4 out of the 12 runners today.im quite disappointed with it coz im never satisfied with my performance.my legs were already killin me and i had one more event to go.and as the most crucial runner,i had to do my best and make it work.at least we made it into the A finals.we barely made it.but in the end,we got 4th place and my legs gave way after that.i couldnt walk at all and i collapsed on the ground feeling so helpless with no energy left in me.that was all i needed to finish the race.i made it!eventhough i wish evelyn was here too,im sure that she'll be happy to see us run today.the spirit and the strength we had was just amazing.im so proud of the team for just showing up and doing what they had to do,what they did best to make IH proud.that was all i needed.the support and encouragement from everyone.thats what kept me going.after this,im done with it.no more for me.i doubt it'll be my last time doing this but im sure it was for the best.im just happy that it worked out...that was all i wanted and needed...thank u everyone for making it to the finals and supporting us through...you don't know how much this means to me...thanks...
