Friday, January 27, 2006
Went to KLCC with my family today.Bumped into min min,amirul,tharish,asil,shaz and a few wangsa maju-ians...well,shaz wasnt alone...was with annur...i was surprised after everythin he told me...but how bout the sweet msges,d "nice" treatment...were they juz acts?a mask to cover up everythin?...i duno how to feel or react...its so obvious that im not over him...coz i called min min up and juz poured out everythin...cried for a few minutes...had a heart2heart talk...tears were juz flowing freely showing the pain,sadness and sorrow...didnt want to make a scene...juz felt so sad...coz for me,being 3 yrs together with sum1 and to forget everythin and act as if nth hapened was juz painful...and for that pain to heal,i juz duno how long it will take...guess it was my mistake...being such a fool...always a love fool...i find it hard2trust not only myself but others...and i'll end up hurting them the way i hurt myself...i juz dun wan that to repeat again and again till im immune to the pain ive suffered...do i really deserve it then?now?next time?sori ppl this is one of my emo-ed moments...
