Saturday, December 10, 2005
some ppl say they envy me for many reasons but what they dont know is what is hidden beneath all that...ive talked to a few close frenz bout their past and present experiences and i juz feel that ive no one to trust but myself....at the beginning, i thought that i could change this guy and mould him into a great person..everything was perfect and the memories were wonderful..but nothing seems as perfect as u wish it wil be..i gave him everythin; my trust,loyalty,sincerity,care,love...but i felt that there were some faults in me which caused this relationship to backslide.....i know ive made mistakes and he did too....i juz couldnt accept the way things were headed and felt that it was juz goin to cause heartbreaks and sorrow....the truth is ive done bad things in this life and i know that i wont do that again in future coz it'll ruin me as a person mentally and emotionally....all of the reasons i did this is coz of the person i love....but he juz didnt understand how i really felt even with my mum forcin me to end this relationship....both of us ended up cheatin on each other(he dreamt bout it before)and it wasnt what we've expected....i admit i have broken a guy's heart coz i rejected him eventho he brought happiness into my life...sadly,it juz wasnt meant to be..nor is it meant to be now....i realise i'll have to let go sooner or later before i get burnt and scarred....
