Friday, December 02, 2005
i realised that after being with my boyfriend for almost 3 yrs, things dun reali go as planned...sumtimes i wonder whether im reali appreciated for me or juz being used for comfort and support....all this while i have been trying2make things work out...but after one incident,i juz lost hope,trust,faith in him.....i duno whether i can accept this relationship again and everything he tells me,my heart keeps rejecting every single word....coz i dun trust or love him as much ias i used to....he kept secrets from me and lied to me....i juz wonder whether i truly deserve a guy who treats me that way....i feel like such a fool for acceptin him again after we broke up....but all i wanted was to reach 3 yrs....and then he doesnt have to see me again....i dun expect to gain anything from that....but he wanted more than juz 3 yrs....i wasnt sure bout all of it.....he kept sayin that he didnt come all the way here for nothing and dat he wans our future plans to come true....he should have thought bout it before he left me heartbroken and devastated.....i know that there's something in him that is good and not deceitful...but im juz sick of being hurt and being weak....im the one who has to make most of the sacrifices in the future....but does he appreciate what ive done or have to do?......somehow i feel that the guy i want to spend the rest of my life with will never be here.....but i can never tell him that.....i'd rather hurt myself than let him be hurt....he doesnt know anythin bout how to make me happy.....when all i've ever done was mould him into a guy who understands what relationships are and what love truly means.....the truth is ive been to blind to see what lies beneath all the lies and betrayal until i leave myself in the corner of a room crying my eyes out....which i know is useless and will never change things....well,i believe that things will change.....within this 2 mths,i believe that der'll be sum light in my life....but im not sure if i'll ever opened up to him again......Never Again
Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Guy, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the woman
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again
No, no, no, no, no, no
Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it
But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the woman
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again
Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me